I Can’t Express Enough How Deceiving Invisible Illness Is 🙈🙉🙊

I have been battling severe pelvic pain for years now.

It’s been consuming in every way.

I was doing so well for so long and was able to maintain my symptoms, but I always seem to go back and out of remission. 

When I suffer from pelvic pain flares like this, I lose track of time and what’s going on around me. I go into survival mode, and all I can focus on is tending to my body and the pain. At the end of it, once you surface, it feels like you lose such a huge chunk of time and you're exhausted.

Unfortunately, pelvic pain flares can last months to almost a year.

I do everything I can to try an avoid this type of pain, but my body continues to fight against me.

I know that my weightlifting, running, and any form of exercise is on hold or a possible loss.

Thinking about having to give up running is so hard for me to grasp. But I don’t want it contributing to my pelvic pain and its something I have to consider.

 I am still on a mission to find a solution for my pelvic pain. I truly hope one day that all this hard work, dedication and time can be better spent and focused on something bigger and better.

Even during a severe flare, I’m still wanting to do too much and have big ideas. It’s a blessing and a curse.

But I’m still learning how to slow down, respect my health conditions and approach things differently.

I’m still working on not being so damn competitive with myself.