I Don’t Fully Accept or Like It, But I Can Learn to Live With It 😒🤷‍♀️

I am extremely grateful for what I am still able to do physically, but I still want to be doing more.

I can’t believe how much chronic illness has affected my life and continues to make changes every day.

I feel so lazy, but I know it has NOTHING to do with laziness.

If I wasn’t battling these disorders, I would be a completely different person.

I know I shouldn’t care; however, it bothers me that people look at me and think I am healthy and capable. They don’t know what is truly happening within my body and the damage it holds.

Invisible illness is so tricky like that. I sometimes even catch myself comparing who I am today to who I was before being diagnosed. As if I had any effect on what happened to me or could have prevented it.

My motivation both makes and breaks me. I truly am the most driven person I know living in a body that can’t keep up. My drive and motivation however, make it hard for me to accept my limitations and acknowledge that my body is not ok.

Having to deal with multiple disorders is overbearing at times. I don’t know how long it will take for me to be content with my limitations and accept things as they are. I honestly don’t know if I will ever be 100% in acceptance.

Maybe I don’t have to fully accept it or like it, but I can learn to live with it.