Chronic Illness and Future Tripping 😨 🤯

 Chronic illness and future tripping.

The vicious cycle that keeps us up all night.

I am super guilty for future tripping way too hard and at the worst times.

I am constantly worrying about what’s going to happen and not knowing where my health will take me.

I used to be someone that was very in control of their life with direction and plans.

Today, I live my life day by day, with no control over what will happen, how I will feel, and what tomorrow will bring.

It’s extremely scary and overwhelming. It puts you in a constant state of panic where you never feel at ease. It’s not really about knowing what will happen, but rather the “NOT” having really any control over it, is what upsets me.

Knowing I have limitations that I now have to navigate through.

Living with chronic illness and pain can be devastating and usually involves BIG life changes that are UNWANTED.

• Will I be able to continue my career?

• Will I ever find a partner or marriage?

• Will I ever be able to have children?

• How will I support myself financially?

• Where will I live?

• Will I have to move?

• How will I pay my bills and medical expenses?

• What if my condition gets worse?

These are all legitimate concerns for the reality of a person that has a disability or chronic illness.

I can’t help but worry about the unknown and what will possibly happen in the future.

For someone who has always had a plan, constant changes and being out of control is scary.